New Blog...

Okay...I am sad to report that I think I will be switching blogs :( I really want to be able to keep blogging from Haiti this summer (it was one of the reasons I got my new phone!) and blogger is not very mobile blogging friendly. I've tried all of my options for keeping this one...and who knows...maybe after the trip I'll use this one more steadily instead...but for now please go here for my new blog... ayitilove.tumblr.com

Thank you :)

Trying...

I've been trying to stay better about posting! For some reason every time I tried last week it didn't work or something happened and I'd give up before it actually posted soooo...here we go again!

I've been trying to post pictures of Molly all week. She's gotten so big over the last few months! She's talking up a storm all the time and starting to stand while holding onto things. She's not even mine and I am marveling (and sad) at how fast she's growing up!

Distractions

These past couple months have all been a blur, and I can't really look back to find the exact point where the craziness all began. The only thing I can see is how much certain areas of my life have started to be impacted by my busyness. My relationship with Christ is definitely one of them. Satan's really good at putting distractions in your life that don't first come across as things that will hinder your walk with Christ, or at least he's good at doing that to me. In all my busyness of life and trying to keep on top of the too many things I'm involved in, my relationship with Christ somehow gets pushed to the back burner. It's amazing how unaware you can be about it too for so long. This is where I feel I am right now...starting to become aware of how long I've been blind to my distractions.

God's been knocking on my heart this past week really hard. Trying to remind me that He's still here, He's just waiting for me to come back home again. Monday morning on my way to work this song came on the radio. It's called "Again" by one of my favorite groups, Flyleaf. It brought me to tears as I listened to the lyrics and realized that I need to be "down on my knees again". Music is a huge part of my life, and I usually find that I can express what's going on with me and things in my life best through songs. This song definitely speaks to me and where I feel I am at right now. Just thought I would share it...
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Here are the lyrics too...
I love the way that your heart breaks
with every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all be new
and living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you’re never satisfied
with face value wisdom and happy lies
you take what they say and go back and cry
you’re so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

they don’t have to understand you
be still
wait and know I understand you
be still
be still

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking
and pouring out

Here you are down on your knees
trying to find air to breathe
right where I want you to be again
i love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again
See and believe!
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Dear Heavenly Father I thank you for your never ending grace and mercy. I thank you so much for your unfailing love, and that somehow you love me even when I'm dripping with muck and mire. I pray, Lord, that you will help me to place my life in your hands again. That every minute of everyday I will surrender it all to you. Lord I pray that I will not be so selfish with my thoughts and time. Thank you for sending your Son for me. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for being all of my strength. I love you. In Jesus name, Amen.

Back in Business!

It's been a while now! But at least this reason I kind of have a good reason ;) lol. The day after Thanksgiving our house in Grand Rapids was broken into, and they took all of our computers along with many other of our valuables and some priceless things. It's a feeling I've never experienced before, and definitely not one anyone enjoys. But, God is good, and thankfully it was only material things that they took. One of my roommates actually came home while the thieves were still in our house. We're so thankful that she is okay. That being said it took a little while for me to replace my computer, and now we're back in the "blogging game" :)